This is my first time actually trying to Cosplay and I went ahead with Xylo Fortbartz from Sentenced to be a Hero
I completed this costume in just 2 nights with the help of my mom :3
Do let me know if you like this cosplay, I'd really appreciate any compliment!
He's around 35, and has been drinking and abusive for the past 10-12 years.
I'm 28, and have spent my entire 20's suffering from his abuse at home, probably since 17 or so
Problem: He drinks with his alcoholic friends, comes back home and abuses and fights with my parents ranting how they've made his life miserable
His "Traumas"
About his School Life: My parents couldn't afford tuition and had delayed payments when they put him in one
His Relationship: He fell in love with a girl from a different caste in school, it lasted quite long for 5+ years or so, which wasn't really allowed in my family so my mom tried to oppose it. But one day she (my mom) gave up and agreed to their terms but only to find that his gf leaves him because of his own life choices (which they both agreed to at a point for their own separation) yet he blames my mom and still abuses him for that
Fighting and ending up being in Jail: He has drunk so much one day he even beat a cop, at jail created ruckus, beat any random stranger. All this has accumulated him to get cases stacked up on his name. Now he can't find a decent job because of the same. He was in TCS, Thomas Cook and many more good company. Yet again, he still blames my parents because they couldn't get his cases out of the picture or some shit else
Before shit turned this bad, my mom made a proposal for him to marry someone. He did it out of his own will, came home drunk sometimes, sold her jewelery for alcohol and ended up in divorce with the decision of both, and again, got another reason to abuse my parents that they've ruined his life
And more such stupid reason he'd find at random to blame them all over when he's drunk, blaming they've ruined his entire life whereas he was responsible for almost half of his lifespan
My parents? They say they've tried everything but the truth is far from being half assed
They can't throw him out of the house because now it would be not possible for him to find a job due to his police cases
They take him in while he's drunk because they don't want HIM to create a scene in the society if they don't
They used to get angry and earlier (when I was 18 or so) would not mind beating the shit out of him sometimes but after I turned 20 they got tired and just get angry simply
His friends, the Alcoholics, they're all sort of successful in their lives, got their shit together except him.
Now some of you might say, leave your home and find peace. I can't. I'm 28 and I have to be responsible, my parents are getting old. Maybe back in 24 I would agree but if I had a good job with good salary but for some fuckn reason, it's all fucked up with me
I would've still managed his abuse but jeez, i got life of my own, so why not let fuck that up too?
I lost all my friends
I got this shit ass loan of 10k from my MBA studies which is allowing me a 38k salary per month now
My corporate colleagues? I used to think they were good people only to realise they're there to eat you alive, every single one! And for some fucking reason I still can't be rude to them
And my boss likes the asslickers, which I'm not. I don't stand to his presence or laugh to his jokes or in general show that you're working hard to just show them. Thus, everyone got appraisal instead of me, the one who implemented so many ideas and made their marketing team a legit marketing team. But what else can you expect from a lala company. Idk how but I've spent 2 years with them with one time getting an actual termination letter because I was absent for 15 days due to my malaria and got no health insurance or paid leaves for the same. Everyday nowadays feel like hell terminate me.
For the past 10 years this bitch of a brother comes home late at night, creates the scene at house at 3 damn am in the morning
I got into a fight because of him and ended up being in Jail for 14 days and now I'm scared that I can't land a job because they might reject me due to this police case
I'm trying to figure out a business startup whose website I am not being able to complete for some damn reason, either money, or not the right person to work with, or time delays.
I'm just waiting for things to get right where I'm earning well and to support my parents, and clear this name and somehow help my brother but fuck god just wants me to die instead eh?
I have more sob stories which would crawl my skin if I try to remember it or write it down now. It's just really fucked up of a life I am living right now. The sucide thoughts sometimes are clear as clear sky, but two thoughts stop me, one that I'm coward and second of my parents.
I really want my parents to have good life. I've seen them struggle so much I've never seen anyone in my life struggle as much as them trying to feed us and give us a good life. They deserve happiness more than my selfishness
But I'm tiredddd, I'm tried man, I'm so fucking tired I almost wanna slit my throat up
My parents, they've become so accustomed to him that everything is okay for them.
I cried, begged and pleaded and even put my head on his feet at one point and told him to fucking stop doing all this
Nothing worked
I've dreamt of a better life
Free, creative... Produce music again...
I.. don't know what's going to happen now.. I'm almost giving up on everything.
I really really request any kind of help, it's really depressing here man. I'm sad but don't have any emotions left
Please suggest some help, thanks