Was my bully flirting with me
Okay so first, I want to give a warning that I (F22) am Neurodivergent & struggle a lot with reading subtext, so this could be a very biased reading. Also most of this story happened when I was around 13-14 years old, which was 9 years ago, so some details might be a bit fuzzy by now.
So when I was in 7th grade, I had this friend in class my who was very a stereotypical popular girl. Very bitchy, mean & rude; but I liked her anyways cuz I like aggressive women. I will call her Mia.
Mia and I were pretty good friends, even though our friend groups were very different, & most of our hanging out happened during classes where we would pass notes to each other since we shared a table. This went on for about a year, & I admit, I did start developing a bit of a crush on her during this time.
In 8th grade, all of a sudden, Mia started insisting that we skip classes to go hang out together in empty classrooms. Initially I thought this was because the rest of her friends didn't like me very much, so she wanted to hang out with me away from them. I did not mind this arrangement because, honestly, her friends were really annoying & I didn't want them bothering us either. All we used to do in these empty classrooms was read books from the library, with her sleeping on my lap. And no, I did not notice at the time how gay this was.
Anyways like 2 years later in 10th grade (when I was 16) I learnt from her old friends that during this period she & her friends had A WHOLE NOTEBOOK DEDICATED TO PLANNING MY MURDER. It was a very detailed plan too. They had listed down various chemicals that they were going to use to poison me and even had a spot picked out for my burial. It was very impressive for a group of shallow 13 year old girls.
Honestly at the time I found this very funny, because excluding Mia, I didn't spend any time with any of the rest of those girls at all, so the idea that they hated me that much was just absurdly hilarious.
For the longest time, I just had her categorized in my head as someone who was bullying me, but in hindsight, I'm noticing a lot of things that she did as very very gay, & now I'm actually confused. Was this bitch flirting with me the whole time? Or am I just crazy?
For reference both Mia & I are queer. She came out as bisexual at 17 & I came out as lesbian at 15.