u/Iwish-tobeme

So in my 10th I had a friend eventually she became my bestie that time mujhe dost banana bhut pasnd the but never had a real one so in 11th my bestie used to tell me a lot of work (in this frndship i was like a servant that i understood after 12th) once she said to do a work for her (i can not tell it's her personal life thing) so i did all the things at last i felt overwhelmed i said to my sister ki mujhe vo ye karne ke liye bol ri hai first my sister scolded me why i even did the rest of the thing after didi said bol de ki mene (didi ne) mana kiya hai i said no to her.

on the other day she scolded me why i said no (i was like jaise meri choice hi ni ho kuch yes or no bolne ki) and it was the first time I said no to her and it was her reaction she was so angry that time and guess what i said sorry to her she manipulated me so bad. after completing my 12th now i understand that time i had no boundaries i was so stupid that i didn't even notice her pattern but we share a strong bond till now according to her. In schl days i gave my 100% she was my only dear frnd but that time she used me and now i am only her dear frnd but i know the truth so i don't consider her my bestie and all and whenever i think about my past i felt like i was clown 🤡 i don't know how to tell the story there is a lot of thing inside me, don't care agar mere se koi baat kare ya na kare the only one thing i know i hate this bestie ke chochle i hate this word so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it feels cringe now and it is! I don't know how to explain something still feels like not enough i don't know!!!