Something has been bothering me for over 10 years and I'm hoping someone here can help me navigate this fear I've had since.
About 15 years ago, I was falling asleep to a past life regression video (like a guided meditation). I was in the state between waking and asleep. Suddenly, I felt a strong pressure and pulling sensation, as if something was pulling my spirit outside of my body to the right side. I might have had pressure on my head as well. There could have been tingling or buzzing or humming but I just don't remember. It's mostly the intense pressure and pulling remember. Then -- I heard a loud bang. All of this made me fully conscious and wake up in which I felt like my two pets on the bed were concerned. I also felt a negative presence towards where I heard the bang, which I felt was my window.
My rationale mind immediately got up thinking someone was trying to get in. I live in a safe town but this seriously spooked me. Of course no one was there, because in reality this felt like I was about to have an OBE but the negative presence did not feel human either.
I wouldn't fall asleep to any guided meditations for years after that because it seriously freaked me out and I didn't want it to happen again.
I lucid dream every night, have had unexplained experiences as a child, and was always drawn to otherworldly and spiritual stuff. But coincidentally I have always felt fear to try deep meditation. There has always been this fear that there is something negative attached to my family through my mom's side.
I lost the last pet I had left, recently. And I want to get over this and intentionally practice OBEs, maybe even reconnect as my first goal. Does my experience sound like what it feels like to AP? Is that what was happening to me? Is the negative entity something others have felt? Or my subconscious even though I 100% do not feel I manifested it?
