Ive been doing my job for nearly two years now. I know Im really good at juggling dozens and dozens of information at the same time.
Yet every day I go to work feeling like im going to fail and its going to be an awful day and Im going to make everyone unhappy, even though I know Ive always been able to get the job done and done right.
Like today I was so internally stressed and unsure of myself but without even realizing it, the days over. I look back and I got everything done correctly and on time.
There was a flip switched at some point and I just entered my flow state and forgot all my insecurities. Work just.. happened. I knew what to do, and I had the will to get it done.
I really completely forgot how I was feeling till now, and its been over 6 hours since I finished work.
Yet tomorrow Ill go in feeling the same way again like I wont be able to do the job even though I have nearly 600+ days of proof.