i see hope in eyes of my parents , then i look at my hands , then i reflect my life i have been buidling , i hate everything abt , i have stoped trying , i have stoped resisting, i have given up
i dont see any hope , i dont have anything going on in my life , i have been trapped in same part for over years , i am sinking deeper i dont see the surface now , all things are pointing it to end my self , i only have 2 options left , just end my self or keep losing myself in this self hatred cycle i have seen the glimer of hope vanishing day by day from eyes of my parents
i am soo tired , opening my eyes carries soo much pain , i have no motivation ,
should i just end it or should i keep suffering as i bough this all on myself cause i was scared of becoming better when i had time , cause i was too scared to start smth , cause i was too dumb to realise actions have consecunces , i am 20 and turning 21 soon , no degree , no college , just basic education failed everything cause i was too lazy to start or follow through