What now?
Hello friends :)
Dumb question, not sure what to do. I'm 9 months on estrogen... so boobs getting big and face shows some (small) changes. Had total ED for about 2 months (no complaints there, good riddance!). Skin and muscles feel and look very soft. So meds are definitely working.
I just don't know what is supposed to come next. My mannerism and style and personhood still seem stereotypically MALE. People mistake me for a top when in reality I am 110% bottom.
So the idea of wearing something cute or acting a bit more "gay" feels like a put-on, like I am being fake.
And yet the male version feels like the fake. Like the real me is the one who exists in secret, allowing an imposter to walk around and live my life pretending to be a guy.
WTF
So, learning female posture feels like totally new muscle memory, and contradicts the bone structure and so many years of social conditioning.
Fuck, now what?
I will never stop taking Estrogen. I just want to know what might be a good solution for a way forward.
Sorry for overthinking the overthinking.
Just be cute and fluffy?
Help!