Estrella's thread on her time on the show
So, I just read a thread by >!our latest eliminated and!< the true people's princess Estrella and I thought that, since it's in Spanish, maybe you'd like to read it in English:
Well, girls, that was my Down Under VS The World competition <3 Let me give you a thread:
Preparing all the package was horrible. We only had like 25 days that started while I was staying in Torremolinos for the season. I came back home, stayed for a couple of days and went to shoot Regias del Drag. Went back, stayed 3 days (amongst them, I did a gig with Valentina), and left!
I wasn't that present in the preparing process as I would like. This, along with the impostor syndrome made me think I wasn't the right queen to be there. I've spent those last months thinking if going there had been the right choice...
The first time you go, you don't know if people will love you or not, but the second time, having built a proper career, it's much more nerve-wracking. You don’t know if you’re going to put a foot wrong and perhaps ruin everything you’ve spent years building up. You don’t know if they liked you the first time just by chance…
Now, when seeing myself in the show, I recognise myself quite clearly. It’s me being me, whether people like it or not, and I feel like I’ve lost some of my fear. I see myself, and you see me. I feel seen, and I feel validated. I wish I’d gone into the competition with this mindset, rather than thinking I didn’t belong.
Leaving is pretty bittersweet, but I liked having lived it. I was crying for not seeing them [her castmates] anymore, not for leaving the competition. If I'm being honest, I saw a fire in Vybe that I didn't have. Winnnig the crown would take take away my enthusiasm for taking part in another competition, and well…
I have a lot of fun competing. I can't help it. A crown and winner would give me "fame", but what makes me happy is what I do outside of here. With my band, my music, my divulgation, my comedy,... and there was a moment during the competition where I thought: do I actually want this crown?
It's nothing, girls, just a collection of various thoughts I’d been keeping to myself. I’ve been feeling sad for a long time about my time on the show. Until I watched it, and it helped me heal. I’m happy. And I’m happy with what I do and with who I am.
I’m glad knowing that on Drag Race España, NO ONE gave me ANYTHING for free, as I’ve sometimes heard people say. I did it all on my own, through my own determination, my self-confidence and my enthusiasm. And this time I’ve proved to myself once again that I do it the same way, that they didn’t edit me, they didn’t help me.
I’m so happy to be receiving SO MUCH love from you all. These past few months, I’ve been afraid to look at myself and felt embarrassed. I’m happy doing what I do, and I’m ready for an international competition where, please, I can use Spanish to take part in the snatch game ♥️
Sorry for the mistakes there might be.
A couple of notes: Torremolinos is one of the biggest, if not the biggest, gay vacation towns, and there are many queer (specially gay) bars with a pretty big drag scene. A lot of queens, like Satin Greco, hail form there.
Regias del Drag is the Spanish adaptation of the Mexican show with the same name. It started in 2022 and broadcasted their third season last April, with Estrella as one of the judges (along with Margarita Kalifata, >!DRE5 runner up and RDE2 winner!<)
Estrella is really smart and has a really cool ig/tiktok series where she analyzes different aspects of queer and feminist culture. Like, as someone with an MD in queer studies, she is able to convey dense messages in an easy way, like a video she did highlighting the sexist significance of having a football field occupying most of the space in a school playground.