u/JacksonWinters561

Not quite a vent. Definitely not positive, but I wanted to share my garbled thoughts anyways.

In asking this question, I'm mostly going off of my myself, what I feel and my experiences as they've influenced my perspective.

I'm 21 and at this time have no deep, or desperate desire to form a romantic relationship with anyone. By extension, despite being a virgin, I also have no desperate desire to have a physical relationship/experience either. I'm by no means asexual either with plenty attraction towards women. I also don't consider myself ugly as well, but I don't stand out either.

I'm accepting of the idea of never being in a relationship, or pursuing anyone to be in a relationship with. That ultimately includes the possibility of being never being in a relationship for as long I as live. I don't lose sleep over it, and to a degree believe its reasonable o not have that express desire. However, it is possible that the surrounding negative relationships I've experienced, and seen, have warped my perspective. Its the why that matters, at least from a logical standpoint.

Between friends and family, few to almost zero relationships I've seen have ever turned out well. They've always ended in toxicity and worse for wear scarring endings. Despite going through these experiences as a child, teen and now adult, I've never considered these events to meet the threshold of trauma. They don't eat at me or take up any focus in my day to day life, but I could be wrong.

I admit to the possibility that maybe I'm just scared, or perhaps jaded due to those experiences despite never directly being in a relationship myself. Even if the perfect opportunity presented itself, I heavily doubt I would take it. Maybe as far as going out of my way to avoid it. I wouldn't be surprised if that meant there is something "wrong with me."

However, I always circle back to the so what reasoning. So what? If there is no desire or negative strain, at least I don't think there is, is it really all that bad? The why is probably not the greatest reason to have the perspective that I do, but I just don't care about it. I'm no afraid of missing out, and to me that's okay.

This is nothing against relationships to be clear. There is such a thing as healthy long-term relationships, I know that. Its natural to have that desire, and probably a lot more unnatural for me not to. I think its okay for myself to be that exception.

So recently I was thinking about Dead by Daylight and what sort builds would work for certain killers, and started thinking about Spirit. She can phase with increased movement speed while invisible, leaving behind a husk.

Not the most straightforward ability in Bg3 terms, but thematically I thought about Swarm Keeper and their ability to attack and teleport, specifically with the bee swarm for peircing, and wildheart for the tiger bleed attack while raging. That rage of course being very thematic to Spirit.

I'm not entirely sure this fully works as a build, and I'm wondering if there is a better option over Wildheart or even Swarm Keeper. The ideal split is 7/5 depending on writhing currents, or a 6/6 split to keep Animal Aspect for more tiger bleed damage. I would love to know people's thoughts on this sort of combination, and to be very clear, I am leaning more towards functionality even if it means sacrificing some of those thematic character skills. Maybe there is a much better combination that suits her as well.

So, I've recently been enticed to try Lore Bard multiclassed with warlock.

For roleplay reasons, I'm starting with a dip into Warlock first, but I'm unsure of just how many levels to go. Is it two levels first or just a one level dip? Hexblade of course being one of the best 1 levels dips. I'm thinking a 2/10 split, or a 6/6 split. I've never played Lore Bard so I definitely want to get a feel for what direction to go.

Just to be clear if it wasn't before, Warlock is locked in. I'm not looking for different class or mono classing Bard. Warlock and Bard only.