u/Jaded-Watch5780

Im a teenager and I left Islam a while ago I feel like I dont belong at all I live in a very strict society with a harsh father who would kill me if he found out about my sexuality or that Im not religious anymore Im constantly anxious Two people know about my situation and my life is basically in their hands Im at their mercy Im in danger.

Im exhausted from the loneliness and not feeling like I belong anywhere The suicidal thoughts have made me hate life even more I was planning to travel and apply for asylum but I dont have enough money I feel hopeless drained and scared all the time The nightmares are so bad I cant even sleep,

Im really tired and anxious