This weekend I'll be seeing two family members that I've gone no contact with for 2 years.
This weekend we are holding my grandpa's funeral services. He passed a few months ago, but since our family is very spread out and traveling to our home village is difficult and expensive, we put the services out so everyone had time to plan for it.
There I will be seeing two close family members that I have gone no contact with. One is my older brother, the other is my cousin.
The reason I've gone no contact with my cousin is because he was dating a woman who attempted to kill us. She was beating him senseless outside my apartment, I attempted to protect him, she started bashing my head repeatedly and then got into her car and crashed it into the stairwell where him and I had been standing seconds before the impact. When he later spoke to police (a neighbor had called them because of the commotion) he tried to protect her and told the police that her and I had been fighting. I was pissed and cut off ties with him.
The reason I am no contact with my older brother is because I believe he is a clinical narcissist. He often makes passive aggressive digs and then plays innocent, mature, holier than thou when you address what he's said. His favorite defense is "it's your choice to be offended". He doesn't take well to boundaries and takes what should be a calm conversation and blows it into a full blown argument. It's impossible to have a conversation with him unless you're agreeing with him. I just don't feel comfortable or safe having a relationship with him because he always makes me feel so small and conversations with him feel like walking on eggshells.
I'm extremely nervous about seeing them this weekend. I'm going to do my best to keep interactions to a minimum, but there are so many family obligations while we're there, that I think that will be difficult.