I have a sort of crush on my best friend??
I (panromantic ace) have been best friends with a girl for about 5–6 years. We’re still super close, but we go to different schools now. My feelings for her are not exactly a typical crush. It feels more like I want a really deep queer platonic type connection with her. She means a lot to me, and I get kind of jealous when she gets close to other friends I don’t really know, even though I know she’s allowed to have her own life and friendships. The issue is she’s straight, and she also seems uncomfortable with being labeled as gay (not in a homophobic way, she just doesn’t like it). She’s also told me she isn’t really ready for a relationship right now, so I don’t want to pressure her or make things weird between us.
At the same time, keeping all of this bottled up is starting to feel overwhelming, and I don’t know if I should say anything or just try to move past it. Soo should I tell her how I feel, or is it better to just keep it to myself and try to manage it? And if I don’t tell her, how do I stop it from affecting me this much?…if u want to know some more details about our relationship I can give them to you!!