i fucking hate living in mexico and its complete lack of civic sense
apologies in advance in case of any broken english. its my second language
youve probably heard those stories about mexicans partying until 2 am blasting music at full volume and singing portable karaoke in the middle of a week day to celebrate some distant cousins toddler turning 2. sadly those stories are fucking real
ever since i have memory i have always been a light sleeper. a single touch, or a slight sound will wake me up in the middle of the night and it will take 30 mins to an hour for me to get back to sleep. if my bladder isnt completely drained ill get up to pee even if its a few literal drops, which is why i never drink a single liquid past 8 pm. the only thing that doesnt wake me up are my cats latte and mocha, who have learned how easy i am woken up so theyve adapted to be ultra sneaky when climbing up to my bed to sleep as to not wake me up. i love them so much <3
suffice to say, all of this has made being mexican a complete nightmare. when i was a child and my family had stupid, loud parties theyd put me in a makeshift bed when it became too late, kinda like how it was shown in badbunnies superbowl, but the problem is i would never fall asleep like the other kids. i couldnt throw tantrums bcuz my mom would beat my ass every time so i would stay awake staring at the ceiling until 2am when they left. all of this has made me fucking HATE mexican music i fucking HATE IT. it sounds viscerally disgusting to me
ofc i stopped going to family parties as soon as i could. but its not like i have a good relationship with my family anyways, ive always been the black sheep, so i dont care. the problem is that im unfortunately poor and live in a shithole neighborhood in an already shithole country, and people in my dumbass neighborhood will at random times just fucking start partying loudly. sometimes they bring a fucking karaoke and keep me up with their hideous screeching, torturing me even further. its a nightmare. i cannot sleep until they finish. this mostly happens on weekends thankfully but sometimes they decide to do it on weekdays bcuz they have absolutely zero civic sense and god hates me
im posting this bcuz of what has happened the last 3 days. on friday me and a few friends stayed up late watching moves, but i was fine with that bcuz i would have an entire weekend to catch up on my sleep. i went home and slept at 12am
then, at 5am on saturday my mom brought in a bunch of repair guys to do some repairs to the toilet. this is something i did not know. i tried to sleep but i just couldnt, so i just moved on with my day
at night a couple of neighbors had a huge and loud party. whatever, im used to this, but thankfully i can just sleep all day tomorrow. so i waited, and at 2am they stopped, and an hour later i fell asleep
the next morning on sunday im woken up by my moms dog(technically it was my dog but my mom quickly became his fave person and he only listens to and likes her) at 6am. i tried, so hard to fall asleep regardless. he is an old dog, and old dogs tend to become more annoying as they get older, but they also lose energy quicker so i can just wait. but he didnt. the dog has such a horrific bark btw, it literally reverberates through the whole house. i dont understand how it happens, its like the house is an orchestra house made to amplify his fucking barks and he is the headache composer singing me his hellhoud melody of hell to me. but then, a neighbors dog barked back. and then, another neighbors dog followed suit. bcuz this country is such a shithole its common for low education people to leave their dogs outside on their porch on a leash, and when one dog barks, then another will follow, until slowly the entire neighborhood of dogs is barking. it was horrible. i was getting a migraine at this point. this time instead of just moving on with my day i just waited to fall asleep, but they never fucking stopped. i was crying at this point, but eventually i moved on with my day
the whole day im miserable and sleepless. im literally dying. and what i want most is to relax. so i buy a bunch of beer and down it all until 10pm completely forgetting my no liquid past 8pm rule. at 11 pm i manage to fall asleep. but then, at 12:30 im woken up for a need to piss. so i pee, and then i manage to fall asleep around 1am. but then, at 2am i suddenly need to piss again, so i do and then fall asleep around 2:30. and then i wake up again. i dont look at the clock so i just go and fall asleep an hour later. once again i wake up, pee, and go back to sleep. then, im waken up once again, and once i finish peeing and im walking back to be my fucking alarm plays. its monday, 6am. its time to go to work
the whole day im a total zombie. always zoning out, always on the verge of passing out. if it wasnt for coffee i wouldve just kissed my desk in front of everyone. its miserable, and im getting headaches all the time and never accomplishing anything
this time i decide im going to sleep early around 8pm. i stop drinking water at 5pm, and 15 mins before 8pm i finish preparing myself to sleep. but then... i hear it. i fucking hear it. the reason i decided to make this entire post. a trombone. i think im hallucinating at this point but no, i look outside and i see my neighbors having a mariachi band practice, with the entire getup and everything. IN FUCKING MONDAYYYYYY???????
im done at that point. i just lay on my bed begging they stop. but no. they didnt fucking care that its a weekday. they didnt fucking care that some people have to work. why would they care at all? civic sense is not something that is taught to mexicans. if anything, i would be surprised if they were taught anything at all. i curse at them. i curse their entire lineage. im yelling so much in rage my mom checks up on me. i never yell, this is the first time ive done so since i was a teenager. im crying in rage now, and my serenade is a mariachi ban. they dont stop until 12pm but the rage doesnt let me go to sleep until 2am
which brings us to today. it was awful. an entire day of migraines, nausea, even walking felt tiring. every time i walked today i walked at the pace of a grandma. somehow i was less sleepy than yesterday but still did nothing at work. my energy was depleted. probably looked like a ghoul from hell. as soon as i arrived home i start typing this in rage
i want you to understand that they could easily go to a club or rent a private venue so they can party as much as they want, but nooooo. theyre either too stupid or too poor to do it. this shithole neighborhood ALWAYS parties 1-2 houses next to mine. its not the first time its happened on weekdays either! and they always look exactly how you expect them to look. inbred. low intellect. low iq. ugly. loud. disgusting. looking like straight racial caricatures of mexican people
i am not going to lie, this all has caused me to become slightly racist against my own ethnicity. i hate that im the only one who feels like this. why couldnt i be born in a country where people have some civic sense like japan or netherlands? why do i have to be born in a country where people are as stupid and uneducated as here? where they party so loudly multiple times a weekend, and sometimes during weekdays. where they have loud fucking dogs tied outside who do nothing more than bark eat and shit. thankfully i doubt that any of that type of mexican will even read this since theres no way they know how to read english. hell, i slightly doubt they know how to read at all lmao. im so tired. im going to try to sleep but the sun is perfectly positioned to hit my room and my curtains are too fucking thin to completely block them. fuck