im 17 rn. when i was 14 (in summer 2023) i was on a oc rp game in roblox (bad start ik) and i met 2 ppl, we will call them Grey and Purple. i met Purple and she introuduced me to Grey. we bonded over shared interests and the fact we are all in bad home situations. we grew very very close. and after 6 months of knowing eachother (in Januray 2024) me and Grey decided to date. the 3 of us continued to hang out almost constantly and plan our future together. we knew we werent lying about our age or anything bc we frequently called and looked at parents social media. however as time went on Purple began to act very strangely toward us. she would frequantly make disgusting sexual comments and jokes, as well comment about me and Greys bodies. in summer of 2024 Purples mom went through our chats and she contacted my mom. i got into alot of trouble and got my stuff taken away, and was physically abused by my mother from it. a couple months later when i got my stuff back me and Grey found eachother and waited for Purple together. once Purple came back she began recklessly going on her devices despite not being allowed too, i had told her the things my mother did too me bc of getting caught, and Purple undermined my experience and constantly made things about her. in April of 2025 me and Grey decided to stop dating but to countinue being close friends. not to long after, one night we started talking about all the weird things Purple had done. and we realized she was awful and disgusting, so we cussed her out and blocked her. then in Augest me and Grey decided to date again. however things between us slowly got worse i was pretty distant and disliked talking about my feelings and had trouble trusting him. and he was open and wanted me to trust him. he talked about his issues alot witch led me to being very tired and i felt more like a therapist then friend, so a few weeks ago i told him i needed a break. and today me and him finally talked and he decided to end things between us.
i know it was all a bunch of online shit and it shouldnt be so broken up about this. but it feels like such a big part of my life has ended, and i feel like no one could love me like Grey did, and i can never have another close bond or friendship with any one else, im scared i wont be accepted by anyone else since im considered cringe and weird by other ppl. i spent 3 years planning to be with them forever, and now both of them are gone for good. i miss Grey already. i dont know what to do with my life.
