My crush doesn't love me, and no one ever will
My crush doesn't love me, and no one ever will. I know this seems like an average post, but I had to vent.
I'm a trans person, specifically non-binary, and things are really hard for me. Especially when it comes to love. I should clarify that because of my current situation, I haven't been able to come out. I'm already judged for being bisexual; I can't imagine what it would be like if I said I wasn't cis.
The point is, I'm in love with a guy, I love him like I've never loved anyone before, but he's straight. Everyone sees me as a cis woman, so they think it's okay, but it's not. Deep down, I know there's no way he'll fall in love with me; that he'll love me for who I am, and it's not because he's a bad person or anything like that. He's just attracted to women, and I don't identify as one.
I desperately want to be cisgender. I cry so much thinking that if I were, this wouldn't be happening to me. I've even tried to accept being seen as a woman by everyone, but I can't take it anymore. It doesn't just hurt because it's not him anymore; I'm starting to believe that no one will ever love me because I'm not cisgender. I can't stop crying when I think about all of this.
Please, if you feel or have felt something similar, share it. It would help me feel a little less alone.