Disturbing false memory
I want to start by saying I’ve already informed my psychiatrist of this and I’m awaiting a response.
I’d like to say this is the first time this has happened, but I really am not certain I can entirely trust my memory. I’m really just curious if anyone else has had anything remotely similar happen and what worked for you to get through it.
For about 6 months as far as I can remember I’ve had this extremely real memory of murdering my grandfather, violently. I woke up this morning after just absolutely breaking down last night, to remember that I was at the hospital when my grandfather passed away as a result of complications of a heart attack. I spent about 2 hours having to go through each memory to decipher which was true, the hospital memory I remember what I was doing before and after, the false memory is like isolated, I don’t even have a timeline it was just “in the past.” My grandfather raised me since I was a baby and it seems incredulous I would forget such a major life event.
In my head I’m thinking that was like a big memory, what if there are smaller memories that I’ve fabricated that are or have influenced my decisions.