i feel like i’m doing well in med school but not actually understanding medicine lol
so we just finished block 1 and now we’ve started upper limb anatomy. I ended up scoring 78 % and somehow got into the top 3 scorers , which honestly doesn’t make sense to me because i skipped embryology. some of you might remember my last post where i asked for yalls help and i only did like 2 chapters.
i know i’m a good test taker, but i’m not able to connect the dots. i can solve mcqs and score well, like i got almost 80% in the first test too, but when it comes to actually understanding stuff, i feel like i’m lacking. For example, it’s been 2 weeks and i still don’t understand the difference between anterior and posterior shoulder dislocations. i can kind of picture anatomy on my own body, but not in a clear or detailed way.
this has been bothering sm. i feel like i might have some kind of learning issue/disability . i struggle with following instructions sometimes, and i can’t explain complex topics properly without using a lot of filler words. visualizing things is also hard for me.
Also , there are people with asd in my extended family, and sometimes i relate to my autistic cousins more than i relate to other normal people, which makes me question things even more.
what confuses me is that i’ve always been a high achiever. i did well in block ospe too, and my friends say i’m the smartest person they know?????, which i don’t really believe. i feel like i just have a good memory and decent exam technique.
what really scared me was a reel i saw that said you can pass med school exams without actually understanding medicine. now i keep thinking about it.
what if that’s me? what if i get through exams but never truly understand anything? how will i work in a hospital if i can’t apply this knowledge? i don’t think i’m dumb, but something feels off and i don’t know what it is.
has anyone else felt like this ? and does it get better or am i just faking my way through it?