My life is hopeless, i dont feel normal anymore its weird. (Addicted to thc)
(16F)I’ve been struggling really badly mentally lately and I don’t fully know how to explain it. I feel constantly overwhelmed, anxious, emotionally unstable, and disconnected from myself. Nothing feels the same mentally anymore and I feel like I can’t think clearly or focus. My thoughts feel scrambled, I forget things quickly, and I overthink constantly. I also get chest tightness/aching a lot when I’m stressed or emotional.
A lot of this got worse after emotional stress involving someone I was attached to, and recently I also used Percocets for a few days along with regular THC/nicotine use, which I think may have made my anxiety and emotional state worse. I’ve been having crying spells, feeling hopeless, feeling lonely, and sometimes thinking “I don’t want to be here anymore,” even if I don’t necessarily plan to act on it.
I still know what’s real and where I am, but mentally I feel disconnected from myself and life feels “off” or unreal in my head. I really need help understanding what’s going on and how to manage it because it’s starting to affect my ability to function normally.
I know it only starts with the smoking and quitting it, but it’s like my brain doesn’t want to. Every time I try to , i just remind myself of how impatient I am and that I won’t be able to quit no matter what because of the withdrawals too. I don’t know, but honestly, I can’t get fixed and I don’t think I will anytime soon and I have no one either so honestly, I feel like just ending it. Thinking about overdosing on the percs next week. Theres no point for me to be here anyways I have no family no friends. I’ve had a therapist for the longest She’s no help . There’s nothing I can do. I’ve tried everything.