r/derealization

I used to smoke all the time but I stopped for a while because of derealization it took me a few months to get over it but now I’m finally over it so how do I go back into smoking weed without experiencing any of it any advice would be appreciated.

just wanted to vent a little bit. I don’t know why or how this happens to me but about 2 1/2 months ago I was just driving home from a photo shoot and suddenly my environment around me just felt different. It was literally like a blink of an eye, my surroundings felt different maybe just not . From that day on it’s just been a living. Hell I just don’t understand how I could possibly be normal after something like this or even if I could ever recover from something like the amount of time that I’ve obsessed over it the constant researching the going into groups and constant asking people for reassurance and trying to figure out if somebody’s been through something like this the exact same way that I have, etc. I mean, I got my emotions back. I got my appetite back. I started gaining weight again and I still just feel entirely trapped inside of my head. I don’t really know how to explain it. It just feels like I’m too overly aware of my existence at this point these past 2 1/2 months have literally felt like a blur and felt like three years. I don’t even remember what normal life feels like my perception of time is fucked. I guess I’m just looking for some hope or I don’t know. I’m really just venting to be honest with you like I’ve had this twice before in my life, but never this extreme ever. I had it for over a year when I was 15 and recovered then I had it for like two or three months when I was 24 and and I remember the similar feelings from those but I don’t remember it ever being this bad like I don’t know if I just scared myself so badly in the first few weeks that I this intense fear around but I think that’s what happened before when I had it I kind of just figured out that it was from anxiety or from stress and I accepted it, and I just continued to live my life and eventually it just went away, but this time I just obsessed over it and obsessed over it to the point where I developed this crippling, fear of depression and fear of death and fear of me never being able to live a good life again

I experience very intense episodes of dissociation and I’m receiving treatment, but what I’m about to describe is VERY different!!
Everything started in May of this year, when I suddenly entered a mental loop. I had just woken up, and my mind simply went into a loop.
Everything I was seeing in front of me, and any movement I made, felt like it was repeating infinitely. And here’s the thing: unlike dissociation, where I’m aware that I’m having an episode, during this loop I’m NOT aware that I’m experiencing it. In other words, in my mind, my entire life has ALWAYS been ONLY that loop, throughout all my years of life. In my mind, NOTHING ELSE exists besides what’s happening in the loop, and it always has been and always will be only that!!
The feeling that terrifies me the most is that I feel like I’ve forgotten that life IS and has ALWAYS been only that loop. I become desperate, waiting to become familiar with it again and understand that only that exists and that it’s an infinite loop (I never actually become familiar with it, because real life isn’t like that), but in my mind, while I’m having the episode, it IS!!!
It’s very difficult to explain, because I’m NOT consciously just THINKING that maybe life is a loop. In that moment, that IS my reality. I genuinely believe that it’s always been this way, and I can’t access the normal awareness I have outside the episode.
So I have absolutely NO awareness that I’m experiencing a loop-related crisis or episode.
These episodes last a few minutes. Then I return to normal and realize that life wasn’t actually like that. My usual perception of reality comes back, but I remember absolutely everything I felt, thought, and believed during the episode. I don’t have any memory loss or blackouts.
I’ve spoken to several psychiatrists, but I feel like there’s nothing I can say that makes them understand the difference between this and the dissociation I also experience. Whenever I try to explain it to them, they think I’m describing a normal dissociative episode, but NOOOOO, that’s not it!!

Hi all. This is my First post on this subreddit (Crossposted) and Im looking for some help please.

When I was 14, I smoked weed for the first time, and I had a good experience. I was forgetting things, laughing, interested in things, and had zero negatives. The next 2 days I felt foggy, but it went away. Fast forward to when im 15. I started smoking every 3 weeks or so with some friends, but the experience was different. Every time I got high I felt heavy, slow motion, delayed. Its almost as if I moved my head, felt it, and it would take 2 seconds before my vision actually caught up. At first I thought I had too much, but I would only have 4 or so tokes while my friends who smoked less than me would have 10+. I must have smoked around 20 times since I was 15 and I realised that even when I wasnt high, I felt high. Everything was slow motion, delayed, and im just always out of it, or confused. I believe this was due to me having a panic attack and greening out twice, so i stopped with weed. The only problem with this is I have Tourettes, which the best medication is THC, which ive had to stop taking. Its been around 4 months since I stopped and im now 16. My condition is still the exact same, but im also just so so anxious all of the time. I have panic attacks multiple times throughout the day, I am on Fluoxetine, an anti anxiety/depressant at the max dose, but I always feel sick, get shallow breaths, and feel faint. Does anyone have any tips that could help me?

Another thing to do with this, is ive heard Mushrooms can help with DPDR symptoms, my friends are actually trying them soon and invited me, will it actually help my DPDR? Or make it worse.

Thanks