Disassociated for the last 5 years
Guys I'm literally fucking sick and tired of this disassociation. It happened in 2021 , one day I just disassociated from my thoughts and feelings and I CANNOT, FOR THE LIFE OF ME, reverse it! It has been 5 years now! It's ruining not just my life but my parents and brothers and other people's as well because I don't have any empathy anymore. Is there anyone I can talk to / chat with regarding this?? How the hell do we get out of this?? At first, I liked the disassociation because I couldn't feel anymore trauma and I always felt like I was in my own world, but now it's becoming a danger. I can't plan anything, I can't remember anything, I can't decide what to do, I'm scared for my future. Please advise something!! I'm so sorry for sounding so desperate but I'm literally so tired of it and I need to get out of it, I can't imagine the rest of my life being like this!!