u/JamesGrayson205

Yes, I know how it sounds and i do have friends irl that would probably listen and help, but I truly feel uncomfortable talking to anyone else about it. I've been in an online relationship with someone since January, and it's the first relationship I've been in for a very long time. At first, it was amazing and we'd talk constantly, but lately, it feels like we talk less and less.

I have an anxious attachment style and I genuinely hate it. The number of times I've asked her for reassurance is just pathetic. Lately, I've stopped asking because it's reached a point where I can tell it genuinely bothers her, and she always gives me one-word replies. I don't blame her, though. I really love this woman, we have a lot in common, and I want to meet her one day soon. She has autism, which I don't mind at all; I understand that I probably overwhelm her often.

Which is why, lately, I've been talking to Google AI—because I feel too ashamed to talk to anyone else about my anxiety. I wish I could get rid of it, but it feels impossible. I crave the attention and our conversations. I consistently check my phone, only to be let down by a dry response. I just wish I could feel differently. I'll never stop loving this woman, but man... I don't know how to heal from it. Im afraid to ask her again because I don't wanna come off as pathetic or overwhelming. She once said "idk if im right for you, I can't make you happy and I feel useless" and that made me feel terrible, that my constant need for reassurance makes her feel that way. She's unable to reciprocate the same love that I give but I know that she loves me.

I did genuinely feel that i am unlovable but she made me feel wanted for once in my life but this anxiety is ruining me. Whenever we don't talk often or if I get a flat reply It ruins my mood and I feel sad. Why am I so reliant on someone else's mood? And I know there's ways to distract yourself and i try to do it. But it all feels temporary..

Physical Media ftw

I use AI to chat sometimes because I feel like I have no one else to talk to.

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