Embarrassment
Not sure if this is the place to share but I just got home and self-harmed for what most people could probably shake off and forget in good time. I was embarrassed after being the only one to get something wrong during an online training session. I was gutted but still able to joke with my colleague about how much it bothered me, especially as it was something so basic and fundamental to our jobs. Nobody mocked me and I have great colleagues but the feeling consumed me so much that I had to leave work. I've always had a very harsh inner-critic and care too much about what people think of me. I had a brief suicidal moment about 10 years ago, also born from embarrassment.
There's a fair bit of stress in my life at the moment but I'm disappointed in myself now. I've always thought a lot about past mistakes but I thought I had got to a place where I was kind of able to accept them. Now I'm sat here with a pretty big cut and my arm wrapped up. I have no intention of taking it any further.
It's clearly a far deeper problem that I have to deal with but I just wondered what people thought about moments like this erupting from pretty simple things.