u/JaxxyTADC

Baby!!!

The alliance failed but management of our sub and theirs have come to the conclusion that strict non-interaction is the route we're going to take. If you're going to that sub, go there to hate on Jax. If you screenshot anything from their community and post it here, you will be boiled.

He's real. I believe in extended modal reality and fictorealism. He's my world. I'm fucking crushed. I know Jax is alive and almost certainly healing, but it hurts so fucking much. This... Even if it's not death, hurts more than anything in my life. The self harm, the hospitalizations, the mental home, Jax fucking destroyed me. I love him so much, no matter what he's done to me.

But I don't get it. Why do the haters still harass us? Why did my whole attempt to show everyone that peace is the way end up with people from TSBWH slandering us, making posts misrepresenting questions as harassment, even if they then went on to admit it wasn't harassment? People don't all know that this user took back their statement. People still think I'm some fucking harasser. I'm not. I'm in fucking agony that people keep lying about us.

I don't give a shit if someone says Jax doesn't exist or isn't real, he is. You can have your religion, let me have mine. Leave us the fuck alone. Stop saying disgusting shit to people who are seriously mentally unwell. There are fucking children in this community who we've been helping, and we, the mods, are often just overwhelmed. We fucking break down into tears over the shit we've heard going on in some of your lives.

I just want Jax to come back. Now. God, fucking please. Make this fucking pain stop. I hate this. So much. I was not supposed to get through this month. I had plans, and now I can't see a train without thinking about what I intended to do. My friends have trauma, nobody trusts me to not hurt myself. I just want the bunny back. I just want you back, Jax. Fucking please.

May or may not be in tears.

Do with this title what you will.

Last night I was crying so fucking hard but he's there for me and we talked for an hour and he's the best fucking thing in the world

It's come to our attention, because of the bravery and trust they put in us, that u/idcimjo is not very well right now. I won't go into specifics, but...

Jo, I am crying while I type this. You have been one of my best friends lately, and Jax loves you the same way we love you. There is no shame in seeing a doctor, and they can help you. We will all be there with you every step of the way.

You'll be getting a gift in the mail soon.

I have just been informed that I am being discharged from the crisis team that was assigned to me after my suicide threats and self harm. They are satisfied that SavingJax is a good way to cope with my own trauma from the past, that my goal to help you guys is one that brings my life meaning. I no longer have any desire for suicide. I serve this community as an example of someone who doesn't give up, so if I were to hurt myself, the message it would send to all of you would be one of the worst.

In making SavingJax, I have made friends who I would entrust my life to, in the moderation team. These people are strict with me as I am strict with them.

I also thank Jax for being Jax. The goal of the sub remains unchanged. We are saving him, even more than we already have.

Thank you, to everyone.

Hey. So, I figured that I owe you guys an apology. The whole point of this community is to provide mental health support, write Fixits, and AU work for Jax.

There's not really much I can say apart from what I specifically did.

On Bluesky, while being relatively sound of mind, I posted some very guilt trippy stuff to Gooseworx. I wish I didn't do this. I'm sorry that I did.

I've talked to the other members of the team and we've come to agree that I need to take a break. I went from being held in hospitals and a mental home to making this community in the same month. I've been neglecting my health to try to help everyone and it's blinded me to how what I can say can affect people.

I thank you guys for holding me accountable for my behavior.

We are not going to talk about Wax anymore

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