Can my marriage ever be restored?
Without going into the long story I 38F cheated on my 36M husband a couple of years ago. After everything we got divorced and that was me taking accountability. We still live together and things at this point seem unfixable. Will he ever see me as anything other than what I did? I don’t know if I could have forgiven him if he did what I did. So in some ways I feel I’m getting what I deserve. I am not allowed to spend money and if I even buy groceries I get bitched at. I haven’t worked in 10 years and I’m afraid now I’m in the worst position. I’ve gone without insurance and just got gov assisted after the divorce I was able to qualify. I feel helpless and at the time I did it to myself and now I’m dependent on someone and I never wanted to be here. He was the best thing that happened to me and I hurt him very badly and I’m afraid there is no recovering our relationship. So I’m at a point of do I even want to stay after all that’s happened and punishment I’m getting.. not saying what I did was okay ever but do I put up with being treated this way still? I know it could have been way worse and he could have kicked me to the curb when it happened. My thoughts are everywhere because yes I am responsible for my part… please anyone with some insight? Or advice?