super anxious about first gyno visit :/
hi redditors! i'm asking here because i'm not sure where else to ask.
i'm (F23) going to the gyno for the first time tomorrow and i'm TERRIFIED. to the point i've been having nightmares about it the past few nights.
i'm expecting to get a pap smear. i have a bit of pain with any insertion, including tampons, so i'm worried about that. has anyone here askes for a smaller/kids sized speculum before? do i need a pap smear if i'm a lesbian and only ever been with one girl (who has also only been with me)
additionally, what should i expect? will the dr/nurse come in and talk to me/ask questions before i get undressed? do i take my top/bra off too? should i bring a pad or panty liner incase i bleed after? ... should i take extra anxiety meds tomorrow? LMAO. (i'm prescribed xanax in addition to my other normal medication for anxiety. xanax is for emergencies, but ive only ever taken them once.)
THANK YOU!
i'm also particularly nervous to mention my pain with insertion because im a lesbian and that feels like a punchline waiting to happen lol