I really need help understanding what's wrong with me
I really need help understanding what's wrong with me, ive done a bunch of research why im like this and so far lithromanticism is the only label i can sorta relate to, I fantasize a lot about sex, cuddling kissing and even pet names with future partners. Gosh i even wack off to videos without feeling gross after...., ive had partners in the past but i always fell out of love with them in about a week infact I would feel disgusted whenever id see there messages pop up, I thought i was just a huge dick.. but recently I got a new partner, ive been dating him for about 2 months now and I rlly do like him. But I noticed whenever he'd get sexual bring up cuddling, kissing and call me pet names. id feel just gross, I cant even bring myself to say I love you without cringing. Ik it isnt him because I still feel happy when I have a normal conversation with him without all the cuddling and kissing topic coming up. Its honestly hard to explain when even I dont know what's wrong with me. I just want an answer from a real person not some tiktok or Google. My friends cant help me cause even they dont understand. Ps sorry if I sound stupid In this, this is my first time posting on reddit so idk how all of this really works.