Emotional about moving to a new city
So I’m 27F, based out of Mumbai and I recently graduated from a Tier-1 B-school in India with a job in a top consulting firm. I had the option to choose Mumbai as the location but I really wanted to move to Bangalore as I’ve never lived by myself in a new city and frankly, as lovely as my parents are (and literally give me princess treatment at home) they’re also very conservative and get too stressed if I don’t come home by 10.30 pm. Plus we live in a 2Bhk with my older brother who works in Mumbai and my retired dad so the living situation gets a little inconvenient for me on a day-to-day basis. Also, I eventually want to move to a startup and probably even have one of my own so all the more reason to move to Bangalore. My Mom has been suffering from Rheumatoid Arthritis for a decade and now it has gotten to a point where the doctor has put her on bi-monthly biologic injections (adalimubab) which targets the immune system and comes with significant risks and side-effects. I am feeling extremely guilty about moving to Bangalore especially when I look at my Mom, and I have been breaking down everyday because of this. But I also don’t like the person I am when I’m home because I get too complacent, comfortable and I’ve suffered several mental health issues in the last couple of years whenever I’ve been home (not because of my family). This wasn’t the case at all when I was in a highly competitive environment in my MBA college. Also, my location got randomly changed to Bangalore after they told me specifically that I would only get Mumbai and I even signed the offer for Mumbai. Because of this, my Mom is aware of the fact that I had a choice to be in Mumbai and yet I chose Bangalore. She obviously has felt very bad about it but is also trying to be as supportive as she can, but she’s extremely attached to me so I can see that she’s in pain. I have been extremely overwhelmed and sad because of all this, and haven’t been excited about moving to Bangalore which has been my dream for so long. I feel very selfish.