u/JindoMom

Hi! I’m going through an exceptionally hard time right now financially and have a potential gig coming up this weekend that could change my financial situation drastically. The thing is, that potential gig is very competitive and is based on a lottery system so I will have no way of knowing if I can secure the gig until Friday. I’m a small business owner/artist and have done the event in the past and know what kind of money I can make if I secure a spot, so I am kind of tormented not knowing while also being drowning financially.

Question asked: how will this weekend go for me? It’s kind of a situation, advice, outcome spread with the last 3 cards being feelings, hopes and fears, and the death being a Yes or No card.

I’m fairly new to formally understanding/reading tarot. I’ve always just kind of interpreted the cards my own way but now I’m trying to follow the basics. I don’t read reversals.

My interpretation:
Queen of cups in situation: I need to rely on my intuition and creativity right now and get out of my analytical mind. I need to nurture myself as I navigate an extremely difficult time. I also need to nurture my partner as well who is also struggling with me.

Nine of cups in advice: this one is kind of throwing me off because I don’t feel any sort of abundance right now. I feel completely defeated and relying on an event that isn’t even guaranteed is scary. This card shows that I need to be grateful? Or the advice is to act as if we will get the gig. I really don’t get this one here.

Five of wands in outcome: this card has shown up in many of my readings recently regarding this situation. I don’t take this card as a no, per se. but rather the event in question isn’t going to be easy. We will be competing for a spot with many other artists and it could go either way. I need to give it my all or someone else will take my place.

Knight of swords in feelings: I want to push through and get immediate answers. I have this intense feeling of injustice that we weren’t selected initially and now have to fight for the leftover positions. My feelings about the situation are intense and restless.

Ace of swords in hopes and fears: I want so badly to know the outcome of this upcoming weekend and it’s driving me mad because there’s no way I can know until the lottery is drawn on Friday. It’s eating me alive because I know that if I am not selected for a spot my life will continue to be a struggle and I will have to let go of that hope I have of potentially getting in and turning my life around. I fear that if I’m not chosen for the event I may not be able to handle it.

Death in yes/or no: death here is a yes? But not in a way that it is telling me the future that I will be selected but more so that I will be transformed regardless. I will be changed no matter what. If I get in, my whole life will be flipped in the opposite direction. I will have the money to save and rebuild. If I don’t get selected I will have to transform because what I am doing now it isn’t working and I will have to become someone new to navigate the fallout.

What do the cards say to you? My interpretation is kind of basic and wondering what they all mean TOGETHER (that’s where I struggle understanding). Is there an overall theme or message?

Thank you kind people ✨