Separated from partner after 15 years
A couple of weeks ago we moved apart after almost 15 years together. We had already been emotionally separated for several years. I decided to stay in the house that we have been living in for two years, I really like this area and the house itself.
I have been depressed for a quite long time (winters are long and harsh here and usually I'm doing better when the spring comes) and although it isn't the reason for the break up, it made it impossible to initiate the reconnecting at times. Also almost daily weed consumption hasn't been great for motivation to change things.
Now I'm in an almost empty house, the rent is too high for me, but I've made a decision to try to make it at least until the end of the year. The day she moved out I did quit the weed cold turkey. Strange thing is that I haven't had almost any cravings. I guess it's because I wanna be present for my daughter. Although I've never been baked while with her (it was a nightly after-lullaby joint) I'm already feeling more energy in my system.
Now I'm here, literally in quite empty space, trying to figure out how and what pieces should I add to this puzzle called life. I have a job contract until the end of this year, the bad thing is that the salary is just sufficient to cover rent and bills and my daughter's hobby. I quess I need a side hustle and a bit of peer support. Only love!