u/JohnsLong_Silver

September 1st last year she walked out. Got the trickle truth over the next few months, slowly finding out more and more details. I was gutted. Came very close to suicide a few times. Had zero self confidence. Lost my job. Ended up going through a few jobs in the last 8 months.

We’ve agreed to sell the house. I started looking at apartments I can afford and thinking about what furniture I will keep and how I will setup my new place has really started to give me hope. I’m starting to see a happy future. I’m sure I will have more bad days. There have been many, but it’s nice to have a good day.

If you’re struggling right now, it really does get better. Hang in there. Lean into your support networks. Post here for help when you need it. It is a hard road, but you will get there. Better days are coming.

So, my story is not straightforward, like so many of us on here. She left me 8 months ago. Came back and did the whole trickle truth, with more details coming out slowly. She left again a few months later. It broke me. Several times over. Losing my life partner, dealing with the lying and betrayal.

Anyway, here I am at an anniversary I want to forget. I’m doing a little better. Seeing a therapist, on medication, have a good support network. I still have my moments where I just break down and burst into tears but they come less often. I’m starting to think about a future without my ex in it. I think I have a long way to go but I’ve come a long way as well.

I really want to thank this community. There have been times when I had nowhere else to turn. Lying awake at 3am feeling wretched. The support here, the shared stories, it has helped me a lot. So to those of you who take the time to post comments or share your experiences, know it makes so much difference to many of us. Thank you!