I don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore or how to deal with my BPD right now.
I feel like I’m faking empathy. People tell me their problems and I want to care, but I genuinely can’t make myself feel anything anymore. It’s not even just other people either
I barely care about my own feelings now.
I still smile, laugh, joke around, and sometimes I cry if I’m talking about something emotional, but it feels disconnected. Like my body is reacting the way it’s supposed to react, but internally I feel numb. Even when I cry, part of me is just sitting there thinking “I don’t actually feel anything.”
I don’t overthink anymore. I just lay in bed feeling empty and disconnected from myself. And honestly, the scariest part is that I can’t tell what emotions are real anymore and what’s just automatic behavior.
Has anyone else experienced this?