YK, for the all the sacrifices that I made to get to good grades and ECs, I thought the system will work itself out and all that I gave will not go unrecognized (that's how I justified the trade-off,) I sure many people gave up a lot too. By the day, it is becoming clear that system may not work itself out. And I am struggling to explain to the part of me that gave up so much in this opportunity. I don't know what story to tell myself to justify all of this. Literally, the hope that I put in this process and meritocracy, in general, is actually tormenting my very existence and it is unbearable.
u/JuggernautJaded3923 — 21 days ago