Boyfriend and his drug addiction
Will delete this soon…So I recently started dating this guy, he’s funny and kind and I do really like him. I’m a person to get very attached, all I really crave is some form of love after not receiving it a lot of my life, being neglecting and rejected so I guess when I like someone I like them HARD. I’m a really lonely person and don’t have a lot of a social life compared to him either so it can make me feel slightly iffy but that’s my personal battles. I know I’m not a perfect person as I am really depressed, I cut and burn myself and a lot of my body is covered in scars, to a lot of people it may seem I’m not ready for a relationship but my cutting does significantly drop when I’ve got a distraction. This guy on the other hand is testing my limits when it comes to how much I can really handle, he smokes everyday, has done opioids, psychedelics, stimulants etc. He also used to battle an alcohol addiction and is in the midst of it.I know we both crave love and anyone who seeks pleasure in drugs or alcohol must be a sad person themselves, not to say I want to fix him because I can’t place that burden on myself but I feel like if we truly love each other or feel loved we might bring out the best in each other and I guess “fix each other” I don’t know what to do, I’m crying now thinking about him and I feel bad that he feels like he has to do that to himself to feel happy. I know this will hurt me a lot in the future too if he doesn’t change or at least deduct the amount of stuff he does, or even might get me involved in his scene as well as I’m also constantly coping. I don’t want to leave him alone because self destruction is dangerous, but I feel to much for him it hurts my heart a lot I don’t know.
Any advice for boyfriends with addictions?