I usually try to include my boyfriend in my social plans because he literally never does the same for me. Part of me hopes he’ll eventually get the hint and start showing up for me in that way.
Today I invited him to a small Labor Day BBQ with my coworkers. I wanted him there because I like sharing my world with him… and yeah, I like showing him off too.
Even though he never has those kinds of gestures with me, I thought maybe this time would be different. It wasn’t.
He ended up drinking too much, and I got called because he was throwing up in the bathroom. Normally I would’ve gone straight to help him, take care of him, be there for him. But this time? I just felt annoyed, drained, and honestly kind of disgusted. I even caught myself wishing I’d never put myself in this situation.
What made it worse was people passing by the bathroom, saying goodbye, fully aware I was in there dealing with him like that. It was just… embarrassing.
We’ve been together for 4 years, but at this point, I don’t think I want to be with him anymore.