It's my bday. I said I'd be fine watching the kids but I'm feeling sad and lonely.
Not a native speaker so typos and clunkiness are to be expected, sorry.
My bf is having a great time (I hope) at a cultural event with his friend tonight, on my bday. We saw each other briefly today to have lunch. I took his kid to my place so he could go out. Before that the last time I saw him was a week ago. I said it'd be fine but I was secretly hoping he'd cancel the outing and come celebrate with me and the kids. Now I'm feeling a bit blue.
For context, practical reasons dictate we're unable to live together as a blended family with my kids, my long term bf and his kid. We both have 50/50ish custody of our children. We don't get to see each other as much as I'd like. Though we only live half an hour away from each other, his job is physically super demanding and we only see each other on (most) weekends and if I visit him when my kids are away. During those visits his kid is there, in the small apartment, and while he is a great kid, it means we don't really get to have much time for just the two of us.
My bf doesn't have many friends so when a friend asked him a month ago to go to this event taking place tonight he was wanting to go but obviously felt conlicted because it's my bday, and because he was supposed to have his kid. So, like a good gf, I said I could take his kid and we could spend my bday together, me and the kids. They get along well and we did have an ok day. At 8 p.m. I called my bf to confirm something about his son's medication since the doctor's written instructions were a bit unclear and he sounded like he was a bit tipsy and having a great time.
I'm just sad. I miss him. I'm unemployed and my own social circles have shrunk to nonexistence and I'm very lonely. My family lives several hours away. I'll try my hardest not to say anything to him about how I'm feeling, because I should have said something before tonight and not make him feel bad about it afterwards, so venting here has to do. He doesn't go out with friends much at all and he has bought me a present and all. I just would have hoped the friend would have asked him on a regular ass Saturday.
Plus a bum groped me at the mall after the lunch.