6 months since I last smoked rock - still think about it every day. cravings are still there. can’t stay im 100% clean, I still smoke weed and im struggling with benzos (have been for longer than anything). I don’t even feel good or proud of myself. things remind me of it every day. smells or tastes or conversations or just driving by places. I smoke before bed so I don’t usually dream but when I do I sometimes have dreams about it and it’s awful. I see an addiction psych and a therapist (the therapist I haven’t found very helpful).
when do I start feeling better? will a day ever go by where don’t think about it or will it always be in the back of my mind? I’m constantly thinking about just “one last time”. I haven’t told myself I’ll never do it again. It’s just not right now. I’m just taking it day by day.
any meds also anybody takes for cravings?