u/Jumpy_Carpet3851

Usage is getting spotty. I feel like I'm starting to remember what real days feel like, sober days, and I can weigh my options a bit better. The thoughts aren't "if I don't get high, what will I do!?" Rather "if I get high I won't be able to.." insert random thing here.

A few days this week, I still caved and said I'd rather get high. But the fact that I'm not just having that though genuinely, but also acting (or I guess not acting?) on it, is giving me a lot of hope tonight. Like it's finally starting to feel like a choice I'm making again, rather than an obligation I'm trying to get out of. Much love.