u/Jumpy_Cut9093

Hi my merky. Sorry for leaving so abruptly. I booked an earlier flight pala and I'm heading to Japan sooner na. Hindi ko na kasi kayang mag-stay dito and knowing na malapit na birthday mo baka hindi ko kayanin at makipagkita na lang ako sayo.

Gusto ko na kasi panindigan na hindi na tayo naguusap kaya lang ang hirap.

Kaya instead na kausapin kita ulit or i-meet ka sa bday mo, aalis na lang ako.

Alagaan mo lagi sarili mo ha? Bawi na lang tayo sa next life. Hopefully sa next life, matured na ko to welcome you in my life.

Thank you sa masasayang alaala na binigay mo. Pasensya ka na ha. Sorry kung ginulo pa kita at sinayang ko oras mo.

Mahal kita, ai. Salamat at Paalam.

- Brie

Hi M,

I don't think I could ever reason it out with you but I hope you understand that for far too long, dating around has been my reality and it is my comfort zone because that's what I know.

I don't want a serious relationship nor to build a family and I don't want to settle down.

...and yet when we started talking and the more I got comfortable around you, those things that I didn't want turned to "maybe..."

But my reality fucked me up.

My visa got approved.

Did you know why I was on a back to back meeting today? Because I resigned and I needed to hand over my tasks to everyone before I head back north, pack up and leave.

Anyway, I cannot bear the thought of "us" with distance in between. I really did care for you, M. I know I was falling in love and the more I fell for you the harder the reality hits that "i'm leaving".

I am falling fast and hard while falling apart.

I wanted to be sure with you, M. I wanted to be with you, and feel what it's like being loved and touched by someone who feels the same. I want you to feel the same but I think that's too much to ask now is it?

Thank you for giving me a real safe space. My heart was really happy with you and I'd be lying if I say that I didn't picture a future with you.

You're a great man, a great person, and I'm fckng stupid for not pursuing a relationship with you.

I love you, M.
I wish you well.