My bf and I have been sexually active before marriage.. feel terrible
Me (19F) and my (20M) boyfriend have been sexually active before marriage. We have not had sex, but we have done other sexual acts to each other over the past few months. Not often, but a good few times. We’ve really been struggling recently with this. We both want to stop, and we have before, but now we’ve started being sexual with eachother again. We’ve been dating for almost a year and things have been amazing between us. I was the one to initiate being sexual with him to begin with, and he allowed it after being sure it’s what I wanted. Things progressed from there. I’ve always told myself I’d wait till marriage, it’s what I grew up knowing, but now I’ve acted on things I know I shouldn’t have. I have a history of being extremely hypersexual, especially when I was a child. I don’t know what to do now. My boyfriend and I have talked about it and we are going to try our best to stop here and now. I feel like God won’t forgive me for this. Lust has always been my biggest battle and now it’s testing me even more. I’ve heard so many other Christian couples talk about how perfect they are with each other and have never sinned with together. It’s hard to even call myself a Christian now with what I’ve done. I feel terrible. Any advice?