Feeling trapped
I am writing here as I have been feeling trapped in my life
I feel isolated from both parents as well as my spouse. Only reason I am trying to make it through is my daughter. I don't have courage to do anything because of her. My husband and I have been in on and off fights for past few weeks where he has physically assaulted me. Whenever I try to speak to him to sort out, he provokes me instead of understanding. This leads to further escalation. Today also same thing happened where I wanted to talk to him but he just dismissed me. When I reacted, he started beating me and eventually beat me so hard in head that i started bleeding and my daughter started crying. I cleaned the blood on floor while he was still cooking unfazed by how much blood I have lost. Then he fed our daughter and ate his lunch. I am broken beyond words after witnessing this. I know I won't leave him neither I will not harm myself for the sake of daughter. I feel like I am trapped for life. I am only sharing it here because I cannot talk about it to anyone.