u/Junior_Property4372

I had my baby today. I was excited thinking I can get epidural and enjoy the process of birthing my baby. An hour after induction drip, I found out I can’t get epidural due to my (very) mild scoliosis. I felt unprepared and the whole process feels traumatising for me. Now I can’t even lay on my back without recalling the pain and I keep expecting the pain to come. I’m happy to see my baby but I feel depressed. Am i just overreacting.. I’m afraid of talking about this to people close to me bcs I don’t want to look ungrateful