I hangout with my crush. Alot.
But she likes this other guy and talks about him, and her feelings about him, all the time.
Hurts.
My crush, that i've liked for almost 2 years, told me she liked one of my best friends.
She knows i like/have liked her. (Im not sure if she knows i still do)
My friend is lwk fat, and i workout alot. I go to the gym about 3 times a week and compete in weightlifting.
Yet, she would choose him over me.
Im so done with my fucking life.
DISCLAIMER!
I just wanted to mention the gym thing, not as if it was the only reason, but just 'cause she is also very athletic and such.
And i dont call my friend "fat" to my crush (to her, i praised my friend, as he still is one of my best friends and i do like him.) or to anyone else. I just said it here, 'cause i came here to vent and couldnt ignore the fact.
And, i talk to her everyday, we've hung out like 4 times this week, and she knows me much better than my friend.
We hangout on our free-time and in school. We playfully tease and say dirty jokes and such.
It doesnt make any sense for her to like him more than me.
Edit:
Gathered some thoughts and just dumping them here.
A bit more about my friend so you might understand my questioning a bit better: He cares very little about other peoples feelings. He is a bit bigger (like i said) which inherently isnt a bad thing, but he isnt very athletic or even trying to be. Doesnt take almost anything seriously, even when you REALLY should. But hes fun to be around if you arent looking for a serious convo. Acts without thinking (in a bad way some of the time.) but that makes him spontaneous. He goes outside alot but not like running or anything, but that means he's free to hang out with almost whenever. Takes a bit to get to know him, and you have to be a specific type of person to actually like him. (Racist jokes etc. (Im not any different in this way))
A bit more about me: Im pretty normal, or even boring. I do weightlifting and i like to work out. (not powerlifting or bodybuilding. Can be called "olympic weightlifting" to separate from other similar sports.) I collect, paint and play warhammer 40k I hangout with my friends alot. I say a lot of freaky stuff if the people around me also do. (I only freak if froken to) I usually recognize other peoples feelings but i dont know how to react to them. I have some emotional problems (like bonding, expressing my feelings, talking about my problems etc.), probably from my childhood.
A bit more about my crush: Athletic Funny Says freaky stuff too. Has emotional problems (from childhood as well) that she opens up to me about. A bit insecure of herself (physically ad mentally.)
I know i should move on and distance myself from her, but its so hard. In my eyes she's perfect in every way. Can't think of a single bad thing to say about her.