u/Just-Newt4268

I don't know how people survive this. He's done the right things. I go to therapy weekly. If anything I feel worse.

He won't leave. And I can't leave. I have no way and no support to do so. 6 kids and no job.

I'm so tired all of the time. They say it gets better with time if you do the work but when. When will my kids see me smiling. When will leaving the bed not feel like climbing Mount Everest. When will picture songs movies my couch anything feel safe again. When will sex be connecting and joyous and kinky again instead of triggered by any touch even vanilla. I just can't. I can't do this.

Please never cheat. This has ruined me and my children's lives. Don't get married if you can't be faithful.