u/JustADude2007

I am a straight white male living in a red states, by all accounts I had every opportunity I ever wanted, and I wasted it. To make a long story short I was a bad person hanging out with bad people until I was 17, I relized what I was doing and what they were doing was wrong. So I left the only friend group I had which made me not have any friends except one. That plus only really trying to pass highschool my senior year I am extremely behind everyone else. I’m almost 19 with no drivers license. Took my test today and failed it. What man can’t even get his drivers license. I know God loves me and I have faith in him, but even with God I have never heard his voice or have seen an obvious sign of him. The only thing I have been successful on is losing weight. Went from 220 to 201 as of today. Which is awesome im happy for it but if the only thing I can say is I lost weight then what do I have in my name besides losing the weight I never should have had in the first place. Im just sad and tired of being such a loser man. I feel like I can’t make new friends because of how ugly I am. I got a receded chin so that doesn’t help. I have so many plans and I bet God is laughing at them.