u/JustCreatedThisAccc

My boyfriend (M22) and I (F21) met through a mutual friend (M22). Now, him and I are part of a small friend group along with my best friend and our mutual friend. My boyfriend is also part of a different friend group with his friends he met in high school, including our mutual friend. friends are planning a summer vacation. The first time they met up to plan their trip was a few weeks ago. He told me that they were hanging out and asked if I wanted to join but didn't mention the trip. I couldn't make it but my best friend (who wasn't invited as we're both not a part of that group) told me that the hangout was about planning the trip. So the original plan was that my boyfriend, our mutual friend, another guy friend and three of his female friends head out for a week in the summer. They've done a similar trip the past two years. I've met the girls but honestly, I don't know anything about them. We barely spoke. They have never made an effort to get to know me at all, even though I am my boyfriend's first girlfriend ever. He has asked me to come with them but I know that I wouldn't fit in; they've all known each other for years and besides my bf and our mutual friend, it'd be completely alone. It would be rather awkward. Also, I'll probably be in my exam season so I wouldn't make it anyway).Even though I 100% know that he isn't going to cheat, the thought of him being there with them makes me uncomfortable. Before my bf and I got together, I've seen him being pretty close with them on some outings by putting his arm around them (everyone was pretty drunk). I don't want him completely wasted around girls I barely know. Yesterday, he got a notification from the group chat and I was curious to read how their plan is working out so I asked him to show me. Turns out, there's another female friend coming with them, which my boyfriend hasn't told me about (as it's only been decided the day before; he probably hasn't mentioned it because he didn't want to start a fight again). I have never met this friend. I have of course shared my feelings with him and I have to admit, I was extremely emotional, both sad and angry at the same time. I really don't want him to go. I don't know how I'm going to survive a week knowing that he's having the time of his life without me with some girls I don't know. I can't and don't want to "force" him to not go but I have seriously thought about breaking up over this. This trip would be an annual thing and I don't see myself being that upset every year because of it. I love him but I'm not really sure if we can work this out.