Anyone else in their 30s feeling overwhelmed by single life?
I feel like in so many ways, my life hasn't started yet. I spent all a decade in a relationship that evolved into an abusive situation that I left finally at 32. It's now been 3.5 years, and I've dated; and had more heartbreak, did some really heavy healing, survived a layoff and career pivot, and actually have a pretty peaceful life that I am proud of myself for creating. But after taking over a year off of dating, I have started to feel this deep overwhelm about my age, what I'm supposed to have, what might not happen, the insane expense of trying to buy a home alone, and feeling completely isolated in this feeling.
I know the isolation is partly my own fault. I definitely pulled back. I left the community I spent 10 years building for safety and peace of mind in a tiny little town. I have 2 real friends and they're both married and live hours away, and I spend a lot of time hanging with my mom who is the best, but also gives the only support she can as a woman who married at 19 to her high school sweetheart.
Typing this out, I can't tell if this is relatable and normal or I'm just exposing myself as an enormous loser who can't handle real life lol.
I need sister advice here or maybe pep talk. Please?