Basically I’m 16F & my bf 18M or I guess ex bf just turned 18 in March, we’ve been together since last February & honestly I was not in the most comfortable mental state when we got together I was pretty rude, toxic, & miserable on my half. Him on the other hand has always loved me so much, he was so kind to me & sweet & like so perfect, which is honestly crazy considering that he lives in Thorncliffe & he kinda acts like a wannabe. He quit smoking weed & vapes for me, & we were lowkey locked in. Back to my attitude though, I’d always try to break up whenever something happened, idk why I feel like that was my defence mechanism & I always argued when I felt paranoid or anxious. But we started meeting up in the summer & I started to change my entire mindset & personality. I think summer was the peak of our relationship. We had our first kiss in July 27, a month after my birthday. I just got so attached & I tried to be a better person for him, I became way kinder, sweeter, understanding, comforting, compassionate, but in September my mom found out about my relationship (I’m Muslim I KNOW ITS WRONG STOP LECTURING ME) but I told her we’re acc serious & we want to marry or atleast this is what I was thinking, he was serious too I guess once upon a time, he even MET my mom. So now all this out of the way all of a sudden in October he starts acting really weird almost the exact same way as me back in like Feb-June so I’m just lost, I really try my best not to argue & to be there for him. He always said just leave me, why do you care, why are you still with me, break up with me, you never loved me back then so why now. I guess his point is that I’ve never loved him which isn’t true & all of a sudden I switched up & started being so obsessed? I know I shouldn’t disregard his trauma or feelings but I was trying my hardest to be a better person for him, & in all respect he could’ve left back then. Fast forward to February, we keep arguing a lot & I guess we broke up ON valentines (ironic) I was really terribly upset I think I cried so much like I was so depressed & I was doing so bad in school, randomly he came back on Feb 27 & was saying how he wasn’t in his right mind & he loves me so much & he wants to try again & im like okay as long as you become better & put more effort for March he did a lot, he did meet up a lot, he was really nice & sweet but only in person, online he never really spoke much to me but then again he had work & school? We also had eachothers accounts so we wouldn’t text other men or girls yk but then he just logged me off when we had a fight, this fight was like last last Tuesday? We basically met up last last Sunday & took a picture & I was like can you post it but I know he has a big fear of Naazr but I was like idc & he did it but turns out he blocked everyone off his story but me & lied to me that he didn’t do that, I was upset because he lied like why doesn’t he want his friends to know he has a girl, they know me but like yk.. & he’s like why do ppl need to see my girl they don’t know which girl I’m with like what???? I’m so upset then like 3 days later he asks for a break & I agree… BOOM blocked EVERYwhere I’m like wth, but I also feel kinda good, but then like he had his hg on his TikTok? & added other girls on his insta & I was like wtf so I text him & I try to break up. He agrees but then says I still miss you & I love you, omg he’s so weird like he’s saying all this & being so weird & rude, but we gave eachother another chance or so I thought. I told her let’s meet up on last Friday to talk more on this & he agreed last week he was so DRY like he didn’t want to speak to me, but whenever I mentioned my problems at school (with other guys) he gets so mad & jealous..? Okay but basically he also told me he deleted all his social apps so he can’t “unblock” me, even though he literally reposted on TikTok 6hrs ago that day, & I was like why are you lying but I didn’t press. On Thursday he said his dad saw his messages & is taking his phone away & I believed him, he said so much sweet things to me, & then I see him reposting on TikTok, changing his PFP on insta & TikTok, like bro what. Idk I love him so much I thought we were meant to be together forever, we’re so alike, he was the first guy who really liked me for me. I’ve been crying since like last last week until now. I need a grip. I told my mom we aren’t talking anymore so that felt good but I still miss him. I make so much prayer for him to come back. Something really weird though is in March we had Ramadan & I prayed so much for God to bring him back to me if we were meant to be, a week later he texts me & shows up in my parking lot??
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Basically I’m 16 & my bf or I guess ex bf just turned 18 in March, we’ve been together since last February & honestly I was not in the most comfortable mental state when we got together I was pretty rude, toxic, & miserable on my half. Him on the other hand has always loved me so much, he was so kind to me & sweet & like so perfect, which is honestly crazy considering that he lives in Thorncliffe & he kinda acts like a wannabe. He quit smoking weed & vapes for me, & we were lowkey locked in. Back to my attitude though, I’d always try to break up whenever something happened, idk why I feel like that was my defence mechanism & I always argued when I felt paranoid or anxious. But we started meeting up in the summer & I started to change my entire mindset & personality. I think summer was the peak of our relationship. We had our first kiss in July 27, a month after my birthday. I just got so attached & I tried to be a better person for him, I became way kinder, sweeter, understanding, comforting, compassionate, but in September my mom found out about my relationship (I’m Muslim I KNOW ITS WRONG STOP LECTURING ME) but I told her we’re acc serious & we want to marry or atleast this is what I was thinking, he was serious too I guess once upon a time, he even MET my mom. So now all this out of the way all of a sudden in October he starts acting really weird almost the exact same way as me back in like Feb-June so I’m just lost, I really try my best not to argue & to be there for him. He always said just leave me, why do you care, why are you still with me, break up with me, you never loved me back then so why now. I guess his point is that I’ve never loved him which isn’t true & all of a sudden I switched up & started being so obsessed? I know I shouldn’t disregard his trauma or feelings but I was trying my hardest to be a better person for him, & in all respect he could’ve left back then. Fast forward to February, we keep arguing a lot & I guess we broke up ON valentines (ironic) I was really terribly upset I think I cried so much like I was so depressed & I was doing so bad in school, randomly he came back on Feb 27 & was saying how he wasn’t in his right mind & he loves me so much & he wants to try again & im like okay as long as you become better & put more effort for March he did a lot, he did meet up a lot, he was really nice & sweet but only in person, online he never really spoke much to me but then again he had work & school? We also had eachothers accounts so we wouldn’t text other men or girls yk but then he just logged me off when we had a fight, this fight was like last last Tuesday? We basically met up last last Sunday & took a picture & I was like can you post it but I know he has a big fear of Naazr but I was like idc & he did it but turns out he blocked everyone off his story but me & lied to me that he didn’t do that, I was upset because he lied like why doesn’t he want his friends to know he has a girl, they know me but like yk.. & he’s like why do ppl need to see my girl they don’t know which girl I’m with like what???? I’m so upset then like 3 days later he asks for a break & I agree… BOOM blocked EVERYwhere I’m like wth, but I also feel kinda good, but then like he had his hg on his TikTok? & added other girls on his insta & I was like wtf so I text him & I try to break up. He agrees but then says I still miss you & I love you, omg he’s so weird like he’s saying all this & being so weird & rude, but we gave eachother another chance or so I thought. I told her let’s meet up on last Friday to talk more on this & he agreed last week he was so DRY like he didn’t want to speak to me, but whenever I mentioned my problems at school (with other guys) he gets so mad & jealous..? Okay but basically he also told me he deleted all his social apps so he can’t “unblock” me, even though he literally reposted on TikTok 6hrs ago that day, & I was like why are you lying but I didn’t press. On Thursday he said his dad saw his messages & is taking his phone away & I believed him, he said so much sweet things to me, & then I see him reposting on TikTok, changing his PFP on insta & TikTok, like bro what. Idk I love him so much I thought we were meant to be together forever, we’re so alike, he was the first guy who really liked me for me. I’ve been crying since like last last week until now. I need a grip. I told my mom we aren’t talking anymore so that felt good but I still miss him. I make so much prayer for him to come back. Something really weird though is in March we had Ramadan & I prayed so much for God to bring him back to me if we were meant to be, a week later he texts me & shows up in my parking lot?? I’m so lost what should I even do :(