No motivation, but deadline pending
I’m getting a new kitchen fitted in two weeks, which is exciting, as I don't currently have functioning cooking facilities, but also terrifying, because I need to get my current kitchen tidied and sorted before then. It’s tiny, so logically I know it shouldn’t take long, but I can't seem to generate the energy to start.
Part of the problem is rubbish collection - we only get a pickup every three weeks and they only take a limited amount. I’ve had depression for a while and rubbish disposal is one of the things that slipped. I’ve tried to keep up, but now I’ve got a pantry full of bin bags and cardboard and no idea how to get rid of it all. Just thinking about starting feels completely overwhelming.
I can put on a perfect façade at work, but the second I’m off the clock, I just don't want to anything, and can't gee myself up enough to even try. I feel I don’t have anything left in the tank for dealing with this.
I’ve made really good progress with the rest of the house, by making small steps over the last few months, but the kitchen feels like my personal Everest and I don't have the time to keep procrastinating.
How do you make yourself do things when every cell in your body is pushing against it? I'm so lucky to be getting this new kitchen and don't want my lazy brain to mess things up! Also, any tips on rubbish disposal...I don't have a car, so can't get to the dump, and can't afford to hire a private waste disposal company.... I'm not quite sure what other options I have. Thank you for listening!