I love aos. I just lost my joy for the tabletop game because i suck at it.
As i write this at 9 in the evening i have come home today from my 4th loss in a row in my path to glory League. I have played about 20 games this year including spearhead and i have not won one of them. The only times i have "won" in ptg is when my opponent forfeit the match because life have to happen. I play flesh eater courts, lumineth realmlords and have a stormcast army yet to be played that i traded for my mechanicus.
I love this game. The lore is fantastic and expansive, the miniatures are immaculate and spectacular, the roleplaying game has given me far more fun than dnd ever could, the people i've build my playgroup with is some of the most kind and the one videogame it has i actually enjoyed a lot despite it's corpse of a devteam. But i have a skill issue and it makes me scoff and sigh and clench my fists out of frustration for every game i play and the more i play the more frustrated i get. And it's gotten to a point to which i think "why even bother continueing playing". I just wanna win once, get better and have fun.
I am so frustrated about my predicament and nobody wants to help me and it torments my heart that i write to a bunch of strangers on the internet because i dont know what to do anymore. Does anyone have some advice for me? Anything? I don't know what i should be asking for i just Thank you for at least listening to my vent.
Tl:dr: can't remember when i last won a game of aos and it makes me not wanna play the game anymore whilst simultaneously want to get better.