30 days sober after 4 years of smoking
I (M24) made it past a whole month without smoking. This is something I thought to be impossible half a year ago. I started smoking as to cope with a heart break and it helped me get past all the anxiety and depression, but man the addiction took over me so quickly. Quitting weed was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to deal with. There was so much struggle getting to this point it's insane. I used to smoke every single day for the past 4 years.. Couldn't get through a day without getting a hit. I wanted to stop so many months ago but always ended up smoking every evening and hating myself for it. I even had many conversations with myself talking about me being pathetic for not sticking to my words, but as soon as I sobered up a little bit, smoking weed was the first thing I did again anyway. After 6 months of trying so hard I finally threw the rest of my stash away. I'm not gonna lie, the first few days were horrible but I made it through and I feel incredible for this achievement. It's still not easy tho as my mood changes so frequently all the time. Weed used to calm me down and make me look on my problems from a different perspective, but now there's nothing to calm me down and I only have my own head to figure everything out. The stress is crazy, the boredom is horrible, nothing brings me as much joy as it used to. But I followed a lot of you guy's advices and they helped a lot. I started exercising, cooking and picked up an old hobby of mine and it makes it a little bit easier. Sobering up made me realize how much I stopped caring for myself. I'm still a long way to go, but I feel so proud of myself already! If I can do it, anyone can! Just throw it away, don't worry about how painful it will be, experiencing what brings you joy while being sober is so much better. Just stop. You can do it too.